January 2, 2008
"So I'm sitting here at work completely exhausted from this wonderful and great party weekend that I had.
I was pretty sure that I was ten years younger than I actually am, with the way that I behaved this weekend. Good old "DAVID" was hitting the club and destroying his liver like he was 18 again.
I was out almost everyday guzzling down whatever alcoholic beverage you threw at me.
I was a champion!!
LOL
There was even a day that I DIDN'T drink, but my body had the sluggish symptoms of what would have been a hangover.
Today will be the first day, in about 4, that I haven't had something to drink.
New Years was a beautiful blurr of shiny objects, drinks thrown to and fro, flirtations, and cold, inconsiderate weather!
And so, as we all know....when the new year rolls by we choose to give up some kind of bad habit or addiction.
Naturally, one would assume that I would give up the good ole alky. But no...I drink because it makes me feel sexy and cool, and of course there's nothing like the feeling of being hit by a truck the next morning to make a person feel extra glamorous.
So I chose to give up something else that made me EQUALLY attractive as an alcoholic with liver poisoning.
Smoking. (Just seeing the word is making me want one right now...GRRRRR)
Now the denial that an addict has is pretty intense. They believe that they can quit at any time. They have this made up lie, embedded into their brain, that they are the master of this need for stimuli. As Foxxy Love would say, "We ain't slaves to nothin but the rhythm" Not to mention, there is always an excuse why they really don't need to give it up.
That's not true at all. It's one of the hardest things to do. To give something up cold turkey without any kind of waining system.
To just stop.
It's only been one day, but it seems like my body knows what I am up to and wants a cigarette.
I'm not a person who craves. I never want a cigarette unless I have a pack on me. Some how NOW...it's not the case anymore. I guess I'm going to have to admit it...I am addicted to looking MAD SEXY and cool. And Cigarettes help me to attain the look I'm going for.
BUT...apparently as cool as cigarettes make me look, the SMELL, from what I hear is not so cool.
So this year...I will do my best to try and keep my sex appeal WITHOUT the crutch of a cigarette.
I know what you are thinking, "But Franky...You can't possibly look as gorgeous as you do with out a cigarette." and " How in the world are you going to smell as truly fabulous as you do when you've been smoking??!"
I honestly, 100% completely know where you are coming from.
I really truly don't want to deprive anyone the opportunity to bask in the beauty that is me walking in from outside reeking of ashtray. Or kissing my nicotine riddled mouth. OR seeing me hack up something green and not be sure if it's mucus or a piece of lung But you are just going to have to try and love me for who I AM and not how totally awesome I look when holding a cigarette and wearing my nicotine cologne!!!"
I think i should do stand up or something...this is great material!!!
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