"Almost a whole freakin month later, I finally find that after all the frustration and defeat, I have something to write about.
Life as usual has handed the sour apples that it normally does. It's really just enough to find a reason to get up and move on with the next day, when things don't go quite according to plan.
I found myself questioning what destiny held for me, because people really think about stuff like that. You know what I'm talking about. The " Is this the way my life is supposed to be?" or "How did I get here?" Then you go through those sleepless nights where you try and pinpoint where you went wrong. Most times, your regrets even make you wish you could undo the wrong.
I did that for a whole month. I would apply for a job, and then get all flustered when they wouldn't call me back the next day. I didn't want to wait. I didn't want to sit and let someone else tell me either they wanted me or they didn't. I started calling places. I went on interviews. One place even made promises to call me later in the day, but never did. I followed that same routine for a whole month. I was getting down on myself and thinking my worth was nothing. I felt like leaving my job was the most wrong thing I had ever done in my life.
A friend helped me get my old job back. I didn't have to go begging for it, it just kind of came to me and for that I was grateful.
Then, everything just turned around and the sun started to shine again. I wanted to get up in the mornings, I was happy and I felt like living again. HAHAHA
It was great to be me again. I felt whole. I felt like I was going to be able to contribute. I felt that destiny was directing me forward again. I knew what to do, heck I know the job I will be doing and I will do it like I always did.
Never forget that I loved my job. I loved the people I worked with. Everyone knows why I left, and guess what? He's gone now!! My reason for hating my job is gone now. (And that fucker said he was here to stay, and they weren't going to replace him. HA HA Asshole, shows what you knew huh?!)
I kinda feel like I should have always stood, and stuck it out. I will this time. I don't think that I should turn my back on something that I loved so much. I was hellavuh good at what I did. Now I get to resume my place...YAY for me.
Sometimes destiny has a way of leading you back to where you went wrong, so you can make it right."
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