Just Doesn't Add Up

October 11, 2006

"I am so freaking upset at the moment. I promise that I am putting in all the time I need to math (except maybe for today cuz I didn't have my book to do my homework) I do all the homework, have been to the math lab twice and I just don't get it. I know that it's only Algebra, but I don't understand all of it. I aced the last math class (was the second highest in the class) easy stuff, and I could understand how maybe one day I might use that information. But this new stuff, it just doesn't compute.

I wonder to myself when the hell am I going to need to graph a linear equation in my future job??? Who other than a Mathmetician, Scientist, Architect, or even Computer Tech...I DON'T WANT TO BE ANY OF THOSE DAMMIT!!!!

I want to work with people to help them use there motor functions to the best of thier ability. I want to be a therapist. How does my knowledge of math help me???

I have an A in every other class I have (American Sign 2, English 101, and Art History 102.) In English I was the only person to get an A on the Mid Term, and I have done excellent in all my tests in my other classes. How can I not be good at Math?? What is the problem? I think it may be the teacher that isn't taking the time to properly teach us..but I can't make excuses like that. I have to understand that it's me, right? I mean the first teacher I had for math was horrible and boring...as you can tell I failed. but the second teacher made learing great..(granted it was in the summer, so classes were everyday for 3 hours) but I learned how to do it. And breezed through the class..with the second best in the class...( I was so proud)

Maybe that's what I have to do again. Take a math class back to back so the ideas stay fresh in my mind and I am not distracted by other classes and other studies.

I had other plans for my winter studies but I guess I should just try and get this freakin math class over with huh??

I am really trying so hard to understand all of this stuff but it just doesn't click. (Papi please forgive me) I don't care about a possible number or position that may or may not be there. Why do I have to know that y=mx+b (y+b being the y intercept, m being the slope, and solve for x...WHY!!!?????)Why should I have to care about stuff like this? It hurts my head to have this useless information in my head, cuz for right now...It just doesn't add up"