August 21st, 2005
"I got the promotion I wanted. Guess I found somewhere I belong. In the midst of it all, I am exhausting myself. Mentally, Physically. Emotionally, and Subconsciously. At night before I go to bed (If I get any sleep) I think about what I'm going to do tomorrow at work, or what needs to be done. I am left with this shit in a broken way. Yeah it's what I wanted but it's costing me stuff. I'm having chest pains again, this time worst than the last time. I can't sleep at night, and my focus on what is important to the higher ups, is not at all important to me right now (subs, resos, trade ins etc.) This used to be a breeze for me. I used to have this pegged down. Somewhere it changed. I have a great team. I don't have a great AMY. Everything i tell her, seems to be taken at a strolling pace. Right now I need her ass running. I need her faster, I need her cleaner, I need her to get on the ball like Adam did. I got a lot of cleaning in that store to do, and I think that one of those things may be to clean out what doesn't work. I will do it, with GOD on my side. With my friends behind me, and a better future in front of me. This is something like my old life only a bit faster, a bit more challenging, and I WILL do this life just as good as I did the last one, BUT BETTER. "
Oh Amy, you sweet little 2 face nothing...thank you for making things so much worse for me...AND THEN QUITTING!!!!
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