It's loud in here

Today, not so much a good day.

It got loud in my head.

I have a few thoughts that slip in and slip out.

I ask for help..

it works....For a bit....

I wonder how long it takes.

I think that if I try to force it that it's gonna take TOO long.

But if I never want it, if I never ask for it, I won't get it.

So how does it work?

Being unsure is crappy.

But today...it was not a good day.